Reclaimation

Original Post Date - January 11, 2008

Has anyone seen me, I've looked everywhere.
I float here now
high above it all -
my mutilated self lies on the sidewalk below.
You did this to me,
how could you?

I feel nothing anymore.
The boy I knew all those years ago,
so full of hope and promise is dead.
I couldn't stop the bleeding.
I did this to me,
how could I?

I sit here now,
left alone to wallow -
and as the tears run down my face
I wonder
'Good God, How could I?'

Man, I just found that. I wrote it about 10 years ago.. I guess even then I knew that the path I was on was all wrong for me. It's 10 years later now, though, and I wish to God I'd had the good sense to listen to myself all that time ago.

According to some people, I'm mentally unstable. I would argue that I have a better grip on things now than I've ever had.

Cheers.